I don’t even really know how to write this post. I don’t really know if it will even matter since it doesn’t seem that many people pay attention.
I specifically asked on social media that my birthday roll by unrecognized. Not because I’m vain and refuse to accept the aging process, not because I’m secretly wanting more attention, but because I’m facing a gruesome and disfiguring surgery in a few days and it is weighing heavily on me. I unequivocally asked to let the day be no different than any other.
But what happened instead? A barrage of “I don’t care..happy birthday.” Perfectly said. You didn’t care that each and every single time I got upset. The entire day. I purposely did not respond to your messages or phone calls. Those that did it in person got a far ruder response for which I do not apologize.
I couldn’t even ride my horse because it isn’t fair to him if I ride him when I’m angry. He can feel the emotion. The one thing I wanted to do was go for a ride. “thanks”